i missed my blog!
really x3
it was totally discarded while i was too busy tumbling away.
the last post is 2 months ago?! omg >_<
i fail at consistancy since i stopped the 30-day ss501 challenge halfway as well.
sheesh.

i guess i saw a need of my blog in future
esp when i'm being a loner in my small room in uk.lol
kkay, i'm being super pessimistic.
it's more like, i want a place to rant, like i used to before getting so into tumblr that i forgot all about this one D:

honestly, tumblr is really addictive.
esp with all the amazing people there, it's so happening and all.
i'm like always spazzing over sth with someone, there.
but while doing that, i haven't been ranting about my boring life enough.
okay, it hasen't been so boring, esp with the korea trip and everything.
so, i actually have alot to write (and typing is better than writing it in my diary which is usually reserved for extreme moments lol).

anyways, everyone started/going to start uni.
cept me. i still have a month or so to go before i get dragged to hell as well.
it's not that i'm totally depressed about going to uk.
part of me is really excited at the prospect but a bigger part is really worried about having to live alone and struggling with assignments/exams all over again.
after the 8 months break, it feels as if i no longer have a brain to work with.
seriously, i feel like mine degenrated much more than my friends' did LOL.
so yea, worried about all the schoolwork and stuff.

the greatest worry though is being without my family/friends.
i never had to look after myself, wash my own clothes, cook my own food, etc etc.
and everytime i felt emo/stressed, i had my mum to whine to until i felt better.
or friends, to call up and chat.
meet for random shopping trips and rant to them about everything.
i don't know how am i gonna survive in uk without all of these in my life.
sure there's the internet but it can only do so much.
it can never beat spazzing over which magazines to buy in kino
or ht-hts
or hitting my bro and being all smug about it
or baking with my mum.
and the list goes on.

i know i can't just look at all the things i'm gonna be missing out on.
there's so many more things that i'll get to experience. hopefully.
i'm just hoping and wishing that my uni life would be such that it wouldn't let me miss everything here terribly.
it doesn't have to be fantastic, it just has to be sth that won't make me feel like coming back to sg everyday.
that's all.

on another note, my qmul med classmates from sg all seem really nice (:
i haven't really met 2 of the guys but the other 3 are people i am comfortable with i guess.
and my budget buddyyy! hahaha omg i'm so glad you're going. reallyy! x3
the few seniors i met during the smsl-uk freasher's gathering seemed nice and approachable (:
hopefully, my non-sg coursemates and seniors would be as friendly as these people.
looking forward to the qmul singapore society gathering this saturday!
i realised that one of my tkgs seniors (who was in library soc and knew yisi) is also going qmul this year! yay~
the more the merrier (:

anyways, back to all my friends getting busy with uni,
i'm already getting scared of uni life from what i hear from them.
it's assignments and projects from the very first day! omg?!
and some even have exams already.
sighs.
i'm scared. totally >_<
and all the hall camps/facult camps sound damn scary LOL
i wonder what kinda camps they'll have over in uk xD
better not ask me sick questions LOL

lastly, i guess the highlight of the week is hyung jun's fanmeet this sunday.
i know i'm excited but i think i should be MORE excited?! haha sheesh me
i just keep on thinking that it isn't jungmin and if i'll ever get to see jm.
but seriously, i'm glad bb is ccoming and not one of the rest 3 coz bb is my second bias?! hahah
oh mannn.
shall stop looking at jm pics/vids this week.
that's what i hate about myself.
even if it's not jm, even if it's not all 5 of them, atleast it's one of them?
and i shd be happy with what i get, right?
and i AM happy. really. atleast this proves that i don't just have bad luck. lol
it seriously all started with the cn blue guy that yunsu likes, smiling at her.
and seeing her all happy and blushing made me think how i would be if jungmin smiled at me LOL
kkay, far-fetched thoughts xD

nvm, as my friend said, one at a time.
one day, maybe i'll get to see jm too! (:

ahh kkay, felt good to rant so much.
as happening and addictive tumblr is, i can't rant there unlike here.
so yea, i'm gonna be consistant. or try to be lol.
♥